and I am here to blow my own trumpet!!!

Enough has been written and said about the soldiers of war and peace

How about appreciating this unsung hero?

Whose only job is to wear a peice of his heart on his sleeve 

and offer it to someone who is ready to receive.

The tired soldier in me, wants to go home 

but the mission is to come back with all the pieces of my heart intact 

I cannot find the 2 missing pieces, the culprits are absconding.

How would I have known,that those innocent kids will do such a thing to me?

I swear In future I would only give it to someone who promise to return it back to me

Never again I am going to be taken for a ride.

People say how nice I am, and I smile back and say, 

It's all part of my divine duty maam!

But would be nice if you give the piece of my heart back to me and dont do, what those 2 kids did to me.

since I am weary and I want to go home! 

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An elderly gentleman said "दूदोगे तो सब कुछ मिलता है"  . Is it true we will find what we are searching for, if we search hard enough? But nevertheless this phrase is stuck in my head for sometime now, and I am thinking about smarter ways to search.

Everyone is searching for something or the other, the more profound one's are looking for the meaning of our lives, and the mundane are searching for pots of money.

So I do my searches with google, no wonder internet is so popular with some, it can certainly help you find people, information, entertainment, mostly anything which is in English. My dependence on internet is so much, that I have forgotten the traditonal means of search (actually I never learned that skill), like asking for help and references from people I know. Its considered a bit rude and you might be snubbed by this cool rebuttal "why dont you do a search on google" .

I know how search works in the virtual world, use the right keywords and you are almost there (if what you are looking for is in english).

 How does one call up people for information and answers without offending or pestering them?? What are the keywords in the physical world I have got to use? I certainly dont like a " NO" for an answer!

Suggestions are welcome! 

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I feel like an alcoholic who cannot beat up his wife! 

I feel like a son, whose father has stopped his pocket money!

I feel like a smoker who stays up till 2am, to realize that he is out of smokes and all the pan tapris are closed!

I feel like a sex addict, whose porn collection has been destroyed!

I feel like a gambler, who has ran out of his luck!

I feel like an centipede, who has been cut into halves!

What happens to you, when the thing which is a constant source of happiness is taken away from you abruptly! without any reason or justification,

What happens to you when someone plays God and says "Thats it! you shall have it no more!!!"

Here the Mobile phone mechanic who took my iphone for very minor "aesthetic" repair played God, and snatched away my source of Happiness and I am going "COLD TURKEY"

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This must be one of the most primitive and essential human needs. The need to have all the people who love you and who you love, close to you. 

This must be the reason why people marry each other, have kids together, so the bond is difficult to break off! This is the reason why a father wants his son to manage their family business. This is also the reason why people want to marry their sons and daughter in the same community or caste.

Every relationship then becomes a win-win deal. A husband expects a wife to do her bit, wife expects a husband to be a good provider. Children are expected to marry the right girl/boy and make parents proud. I have difficulty following these rules of the society. 

It does make the community stronger, the family stronger, but sometimes it stifles the individual, does it?

Well I have been scheming now, I want to keep people I love close to me, I want to create such give and take relationships. But I have nothing to give, I can only take.

Who would want such a deal. What do I put up on the table?? I don't belong to any caste or community, I dont belong to any religious/political/business groups. I am not a businessman/father/husband/ or a son. 

These questions are bothering my mind!!!

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I met one of my fathers friend today, he wanted me to work on a presentation pitch to investors, a business plan where he has chalked out the future strategy for growth. He plans to take his turnover from 40cr to 400cr.

I had met him in 2005, when he was making a turnover of 4cr, and he told me then

Manoj, I have plans of reaching this target of 40Cr in a few years

I didn't believe him. After all I was in a similar industry like him, doing job works and manufacturing plastic moldings for various MNC's. While my turnover was shrinking every year, I found his confidence a bit disturbing.

So eventually i closed down my business as I saw no point in working in an industry where profits margins were shrinking. I bought my piece of mind, and was ready for other challenges. I am very sure, I want to enter a segment where I want to be the market leader and innovator. I dont want to be in a  rat race, which I saw myself as losing and saved face by exiting such a business.

What I fail to understand is, why do people want to grow after they have reached their peak, he is already a market leader in this segment. Why not be content, and streamline things and go on a vacation?? He says the operational expenses are increasing and he has no alternative but to grow. He made it sound like it was a one way street.

He asked me what I was doing, I told him, I will keep on digging so one day I am bound to strike gold, he retorts back saying,

it shouldn't be that once you reach the end of the rainbow, it might just turn out that the pot of gold is at the other end.

I was speechless!!

Its now well accepted rule, that if you do what you love, the probability of your success increases exponentially. So I have been thinking for a year now, what do i love to do? my answer is I love to connect people, I want to use technology to connect people to each other.Atleast whatever technology I can afford, I want to help people help themselves.

But i need to know more, I am very keen on leveraging my 13 years of experience of running a business, and I have lost, but I want to meet other people and see what made them succeed!!.

So I plan to use this suggestion of my good friend Soeb who suggested that I write about the dilemmas of second generation industrialists struggling between legacy and change, so I will do some interviews for research with second generations manufacturers/industrialists and see how they are charting out their growth path, and the big question i want answered is, why does one want to grow!!

The interviews would be published on my other blog at http://indus-tree.org/

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 I dont know if you ever feel this way, a feeling like your brain has slipped off your head or if it is jammed and paralysed. You are not able to think anything, and can only watch TV or stare at the computer screen.

So yesterday I was thinking about a solution to this problem, I had this idea hitting me, and suddenly, I saw myself come alive, widely awake, my mind racing to execute the idea. It was an idea, where I will be adding considerable value to my current business model and create a new revenue stream. I immediately jumped and started the work and implemented a beta model of sorts. So an idea is basically a solution? 

The critical part about an idea is of course its delivery, any idiot can come up with ideas, its really no big deal. But delivering the idea to the final stage is what creates value, The thing about idea's is that it will HIT YOU when you least expect it, one has to completely relaxed, with no presssure of any sorts.

So how do I reach this stage of complete relaxation, without going through the zombie stage. Are there short-cuts? I know all the crap about hardwork, but once again "are there any short-cuts where you can reach this relaxed stage so your mind becomes a factory churning out ideas."

Executing is a different ball game altogether, if you are going to need a team, there are chances that your idea's will be sabotaged and somewhere lost. For execution you might need a team, resources to raise finance, contact to get the due dilegence done and other mundane and important stuffs!

Yesterday as I was watching Seth Godin video on a similar topic, where he suggests that if you dont want your ideas to fizzle out, make sure you thrash them initially rather than at a later stage, then the effort required to execute the idea is like going downhill. 

An idea can make you come alive, but if executed successfully, can add 5 stars to your confidence.The execution part need not be drudgery, it can divided into small units of meme to make it interesting and interactive.

But again how do I generate enough ideas on a consistent basis, so I don't run out of steam, and that's what I hate about my brain!!!

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As a series of blogpost about this mid life crisis, which is currently going strong in the 9th year, I post this another theory of mind expansion and re-wiring of the mind.

I believe there is only one quest in life, that is the expansion of the mind. 

MIND EXPANSION is an attempt to expand your mind so your capacity to handle the complexities and ambiguities of life become increasing good, you become adept at finding solutions to the myriad questions life throws at you. In turn you are able to take new challenges often, and you are never stuck in a rut.It can also be termed as changing the frequency of your brain from alpha to theta at will.(Most of us operate from the alpha frequency). So how  do we do this?? 

Well if you are smart person like me, you sleep and sleep and dream and dream, and if you are a billionaire smart guy like bill gates, you hire a couple of nuero-scientists and pay them a few thousand dollars to pass a few electomagnetic waves into your brain and you can become Gandhi or Hitler for a day, depending on your appetite for risk.

Here are a few other ways you can expand your mind in a quick way. For ease divided into 2 categories.

a)External stimuli or b) Internal catalyst.

Some examples of external stimuli

1. Go travelling to exotic places.(europe is a good choice) and people in the west should come to India.
2. Try physically challenging stuff, like running marathons, climbing everest, rowing across pacific ocean or Indian ocean.
3. Earn a lot of money, so that you can change the external stimulus. Think big cars, exotic houses, and hedonist vacations.
4. Chase beautiful women (be a Casanova, if you have the skill.) Surround yourself with beautiful intelligent people.
5. Do stufs like physical work-out, competitive sports (body stretches work extremely well for me, it literally streches my mind)
6. Walk out of your marriage or relationship, or better be ditched!! 

Some examples of internal catalyst are 

1. Try intoxicating stuff like smoking, alcohol, marijuana, cocaine etc...
2. Do things you love, example:reading,writing,dancing,music or even work (if you love your work)
3. Be in the presence of enlightened person.
4. Meditation 
5. Love & compassion.

My frustration comes from the fact that yes, I have attempted at least some of the above stuff , but has my mind expanded? doesn't look so, right?

if my mind has expanded why are there more questions in my life than solutions, why do I take such a long time to get my answers (if at all I get it).

But what I have observed is that the questions have become much more tougher and complex, is this a sign that my mind has expanded or is in a dilapidated state.

Maybe i NEED A REWIRING OF MY MIND? 

Disclaimer: I am not an expert, and all these theories are just a way to amuse myself and improve my writing skills. Readers are the sufferers!

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I would like to wake up each day with a new mind/body/soul, fresh and light. But I wake up, instead with the issues and problems of yesterdays, and I wonder, how can I resolve all my past issues, before the day ends,why cant a day be like a movie which ends with all loose ends tied up! So tomorrow when I wake up I can say "Carpe Diem" and throughly have a kickass day! 

Iam wondering can our problems and complex issues which are there because of our deep rooted belief's be resolved, if one sets one mind to it, then I suppose, I have a very bad will power, or maybe I lack focus.Is will power or the ability to focus on a complex problem the only answer to getting rid of problems/challenges of past and also problems/challenges which arise momentarily on day to day basis?

Maybe I should list down these issues, with two columns.

• Long term issues 
• Short term issues.

I have done this in the past, sounds a bit silly, doesn't it? Short term challenges if not dealt on time, become into this huge issues, which becomes almost irreversible, but we stupid people discover these issues only when it become fatal, like cancer which is in majority of the situation's discovered at terminal stages.

So it becomes highly imperative that you resolve small issues on a daily basis or as soon as you can, right? The more you delay on your part to diagnose the minor cancer cells(issues), the more chances of it becoming life threatening. 

Not being able to diagnose your problems at an early stage means, you have been living in unawareness!! What worries me no end, are the problems from the past, which have now become too huge, will it take me down, like a last stage cancer? So my last chance like a terminally ill person is to expect a miracle and believe in "Magic". I  am convinced that all that all that can save me is "magic". (So I even bought a book on magic.)

I would like to quote a wonderful quote on "magic" i received from Divyaa Kummar

Every word is an incantation,
each thought a spell.
Use your magic
wisely.

So if you have read me correctly, to get rid of my baggages and issues of the past, seems only miracles can save me, so  I need "magic" and to see that my small issues and problems dont go undiagnosed and are treated on time, I need to live in awareness!

 So do you believe in magic? do you know how to be aware? 

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Discovering music which I havent heard before, and which appeals to me is a favorite past time for me, can spend a few hours everyday on this activity, so thought would share my playlist with you. ENJOY! the collection is quite eclectic :)

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I dont know about you, but i felt very smart from the age of 17 to 36, but now that I am no longer in that attractive age bracket, I have been feeling overwhelmingly dumb about myself. Its terrible to know, you are not smart, witty, good looking and not that fit also.The delusions of youth leave you by the time you have 2 kids, but for me it went on for a quite a while after that.

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This big difference where two people are crazy, passionately in love to the more sublime,centered kind of love, where two people co-exist together.

The "I am madly in love" is passionate love, which burns up your adrenaline and you want to be with the other person all the time, and she/he is the center of your existence. It is a destructive kiind of love which creates a new person out of you perhaps. This kind of love is like a fresh flower which is going to wither away, but it makes you feel so alive as you can be.

While the more subtle "I love you but I think the girl I met at the party was hot" kind of love is really challenging, it is something where one has to be very creative, or it can soon turn into boredom and road to hell or perhaps just leave it as it is,if its meant to work it would or else.

If you were given a choice, who would you go for

 a) A person who you love

OR

b) the hot girl you met at the party? who you are crazily in love. 

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A dear friend, tells me again and again, " You can have anything you want, you just have to make up your mind".

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When I mean relationships, I mean the entire spectrum of relationships. They may be extended family, parents, children, brothers, sisters or even friends or work colleagues.  They can also be (not necessarily) your staff or the people you work for. I would say they are the one, who you take responsibility to care and to love, no matter what. It’s a bond which is made in heaven.

Most of the time I have seen that one does not relate to these people who we are in a relationship with. Take the case of parents not understanding their children, or siblings not getting along, or children as they grow up wanting to spend more and more time with their friends or with themselves. All these are examples are of not relating, but they are still in a relationship. Another example can be of married couples who don’t find themselves romantically relating and would rather be with some Mr. X or Miss/Mrs Y.

But again there are other types of relationships we form, eg with friends or at work. Sometimes with some friends particularly old friends where you have stopped relating with the person but still care for him/her. Or sometimes when you know your particular employee is not working well and doesn’t understand your vision, but you still don’t sack that person. It’s again a relationship!

Relationships require time and understanding and complete unconditional love.

Relating is basically a common interest or passion where being together is fun. You can relate to that person as long as this common interest/need is there. There is no long term involvement like a relationship

Some examples are, when two people meet and it sometimes happens that the other person is completing your sentences or when you are so bonding with the person because he/she understands your passion. It can also be that awesome sexual chemistry between two people, where you are inspired to exchange numbers, and meet up. It can also be the immense faith you put in your idols (like say film stars or cricketers) cause they fill that void or inspire you. All these are instances of relating. You can again relate to a person cause you belong to the same culture or caste(religion) or speak the same language.

I have always given more importance to relating rather that to relationships. As a consequence I haven’t  so many successful relationships. Recently I met a old friend, who said I was not picking up my phone when he was in desperate need of a friend, when he was completely broke and had to sell of his car and his property. I didn’t pick up the phone, cause I thought I had stopped relating to this old friend. I felt sorry I was not there for him. I realized I have a relationship with him, though I don’t find his talks exciting or interesting, I still love him.

I am wondering why isn’t it possible to love every one unconditionally, why can’t we love other people’s children as much as we love our children. Why do we have to pick up only these few people to love. Sometimes loving one person means not taking care of the interests of the other person, and this has been the reason for all the bloody wars and ruthless competition. We don’t want our children to suffer, we want our wife to have enough jewelry so the neighbors can envy her, don’t we? We want to gift our loved ones with most expensive gifts or lifestyle, that we will do practically everything and anything for it, wont we?

I can only guess a answer here, I suppose we are meant to adhere to some laws of nature and have an capacity or karma towards only a few people(who we are having relationships with), hence we have to choose carefully whom to love and how much time and energy we can give towards nurturing these relationship.

So this all comes to a point, is relating as important as relationships? My answer for now is relationships are more important only if you can give time, otherwise stick to relating J . And since time is scarcest of all the resource, let’s say cheers to a less & less relationship based society, Let’s all just rejoice and relate!

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Technically speaking as far as I know I am a Konkani by birth, raised in Bombay/Mumbai, and Marathi is not my mother tongue. Neither of my parents had a good command over Marathi language nor do I have (but my step mom is a maharastrian). But I was raised in a Marathi speaking neighborhood with madrasi neighbours. Growing up I spoke Marathi and hindi as my primarily language and English as secondary. Though I was educated in a convent, I couldn’t speak proper English till I was in 9^th Std, when we shifted houses to Vile parle and I had a Christian friend who only spoke English, so being in a new neighborhood I had no choice but to give away my shame and talk in English.

But Marathi is a language I love or is a language of love. I love to watch people speaking Marathi especially kokanast Brahmins, I think they speak the most purest forms of the language or at least my experience as shown such. I can barely read Marathi now, and might take a year to complete a book, also Marathi movies are not a literary expression of this beautiful language.

I usually think in English, when I need to communicate with the world, but when I am really angry or really sad I express in Marathi to myself. May be that’s the reason I love this language, it’s the language of my heart. Marathi is the language which connects me to my past. I like the sound of the language, there are many words I wouldn’t even know the meaning, but hearing the sound is good for me, and I also blush if beautiful women speak in Marathi, No other language has this effect! But the accent has to be right, I don’t find the ghati type accent particularly appealing.(some might find it kinky wot say?)

It a childhood love, my first language, I really yearn to listen to someone who is speaks beautiful Marathi. There was this podcast which I loved which is also discontinued, but if you love the language as much as I do, check out the past episodes here is the link…. Mor Pisay http://www.podbazaar.com/view/126100789566373903  Maybe If enough Marathi request this lady she might start her podcasting again!

Disclaimer: Having said that I m not particularly fond of the so called Marathi manoos. I think the Marathi manoos can be a boring company, he can be petty, and shows no magnanimity.  Also though I don’t approve of  Bal thackerays ideology, but I like Bal Thackeray as a person somehow. When so many people put their faith in a single person, one has to take notice, the expression by the sena people are crude, but that’s how they know to express. I really have no answer as to how this crude expression can be refined. The Thackeray’s knows that the typical Marathi manoos yearns for pride(gaurav) and they feed them by these expression. If someone knows how to feed the pride or glory of the Marathi manoos, they will be no need of the SS and MNS.

Jai Maharashtra Jai Hind ! J

PS: All my punju, gujju, sindhi, bong friends, pls don’t get insecure, I love you all.

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I often wonder what makes a person charismatic. Is a person born charismatic? I would say yes to a point good genes do matter, if you are handsome good looking plus brains (which also is sign of good genes).But on the other hand one can find beautiful, handsome people who are not charismatic. So what are the essentials qualities for being charismatic? Being a good orator is definitely a must have, being kind and compassionate is very essential quality. Besides having complete understanding of the mysteries of life, one needs to back these up with good analytical and scientific skills too. Then the world is at your feet!

Charisma actually means holding the attention of a person/group/crowd/mob, which focuses all their attention/energy on you and nobody else. This can be possible if you have the above mentioned traits. But if you lack these superlative qualities, never mind you can be still be Charismatic. Let me tell you how?

*Before this let me clarify, I haven’t done any big deal research on this, nor am I a charismatic person. But yes I am aspiring to be one.

Ok so you want to be a Charismatic person?? Follow these steps.

·         Never let a discussion or an argument go against you, if you cannot intellectually argue about this, use guerilla tactics like diverting the topic by unsettling the person who is winning the argument by hitting on the Achilles heel of the person. For this, one has to be very hardworking, you should have your research done, you should know what can unsettle the person. If there is no opposition to you, you are going to be the undisputed king, and will have everyone’s attention.

·         Make sure you have your bunch of cronies wherever you might want to show off your Charisma. These are the people who will amplify your jokes, clap whenever needed, divert any doubts in the mind of the doubtful thomas’s.

· You don’t have any orator skills, and haven’t read a frickin book in your life. You don’t have to worry. Whenever you are in a spot, and have been asked to speak, you can rattle off some quotes by Confucius or Nietzsche. You don’t even have to learn it, all you have to do is store these things as sms in your mobile phones, and if some idiot ask you explain those, you can just give an monalisa smile.

·         The last thing is compassion & kindness, this is the toughest one to recreate and all your act can fall apart. But I have solution for this also. When you have your chance to shine and show your charisma, this is the time you should disengage your mind of the fruits of the charismatic effect you are going to reap, this can make you look very kind and compassionate and selfless.

Finally the charisma needs to be sustained, a few pointers on that

·         Remain as mysterious as possible among your target worshippers, never let them know, why you cry at night, or how you lack confidence and always doubt your skill and ability.

·         Spread rumours about yourself which can make people envy you. This can be about your underworld connections, your numerous sexual exploits. The weirder the better! Keep feeding the rumors, this has to be consistent.

·         It can be a PR nightmare if a loser looking picture of you should land up on social networks like facebook or twiiter. Shoot a portfolio and digitally alter it with celebs, or a few vacations in exotic looking locations think (cuba,brazil) with women who don’t have the same skin color.

·         Remember if you can fake it, you can make it. So at no point you should sound or look like broke, and if by some chance you can’t show the money, you can always claim to be an activist, whose super rich dad has disowned you.

Ok I guess Im all done, all the best!

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Warning: I am writing this post as I can’t think of anything better to do, so read only if you have nothing better to do!

Crime is an act which is against the law.

I not a lawyer or an expert in law, but what I know is a law is made by passing a bill in the parliament, a bill can only be passed if you have enough legislative members backing you. So it seems a bill becomes a law only if enough people vote for it, and any one violating the law is committing a crime.

Since we know that A=B=C. It can be said a crime is only a crime by virtue of it not being able to get enough votes. Otherwise what we think of as crime could have been very legitimate act.

So this is the essence of democracy. Suppose a bill is passed to make marijuana legal, but if it fails to have enough people to vote for it, it will never see the light of the day, and millions of marijuana users will be committing a crime, as it well proven that marijuana is about 50% less harmful than alcohol and cigarettes.

Thus it becomes imperative that a certain critical mass (majority) is needed to make something you desire legal or to make something which is wrong a right.

 How does one (person/organization/section of society) go about to reach this critical mass? Suppose hypothetically speaking I want to pass a law which says it is legal for a husband to have 2 wife’s. How do I go about gathering this critical mass support so this can be legitimatized in law? I guess for this to happen, there have to be enough men who want this. Statistics from American sex survey states that the secret fantasy of every man is two sleep with two women together, Just like our beloved Mahatma. So interpreting Indian men being not much different, maybe even worse than Americans, all Indian men should support this law right???

I can’t speak for women, but I think women can also choose whatever they want, if they can get enough votes, This post  shouldn’t  be misconstrued as anti-feminist.

Sometimes it takes activist like Martin Luther King who fought for black rights or Harvey Milk who fought for gay rights to garner this kind of mass support.

What makes these men fight for rights on behalf of others, risking their own life. I wish I could point out some Indian activist, why haven’t we made movies on Baba Amte. Why is bollywood always trashing the same stuff?

Okay I guess this rant ends here, cause I can barely keep my eyes open.

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What women really want?? Is one of the bigger existential questions that man has faced along, with “who are we?” “where have we come from?” and “what is the purpose of our existence?”

Looking back over my relationships I have realised that I have never understood women. In all my relationships, I have always had a big fear.

·         Will she leave me when I’m down and out?

·         Will she kick me, when I’m down on my knees?

·         Does she love someone else more than she loves me?

·         Will I get bored with her after some time?

·         Will I find someone more interesting around the corner?

With all these fears always playing in my insecure mind, it becomes extremely difficult to trust your lover/wife. Surrendering to the woman becomes impossible with these doubts. I realised the most beautiful married relationships are when the man has surrendered to the woman in TRUST, and she in turn lets him pretend, he is ruler of the house or her world.

One can come up with superficial answers like  

·          A woman want’s a guy with an awesome good physique and outstanding good looks

·         She wants someone  powerful with pots of money, cars, houses, vacations.

·         They want men who are independent and not mama’s boys.

These things do help, but don’t make a successful relationship.

What I think is that,

What women really want is some one to love her absolutely, unconditionally and eternally.

As for me All I want is to know in my heart is  that she is the one, to surrender and to love unconditionally.

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I decided that to have some order in my physical life, I need to set a routine for myself, I figure it would help me handle the crazy chaos in my mind space. If I knew when to get up, when to brush, when lunch and when to exercise.

So I decided to go about planning a routine for myself. Of-course a great way to start a day is to wake up way early than everyone else and get a head start, so I switch off the lights by 10pm and take a book to bed, but the book turns out to be so interesting that I read till 5am, and  the time I had scheduled to wake up, I go to sleep.

I figure that I have to respect my natural body clock, and not fight against it.  So now this is my routine now.

Sleep anytime between 2.30am-5.30 am

Wake up anytime between 10am- 12pm.

Once I wake up, I’m usually very edgy, this is the time I get calls from telemarketers, and I let off full steam on them.

12pm-2pm do whatever work, I had planned the previous day.(sending emails, asking for a quote, pay bills, call up people)

4 pm is the time, I feel the most centred and peaceful, this is the time I like to meet people.

So usually 2pm -4pm is preparing or travelling to a previously set appointment at 4pm.

Now after the appointment is finished. I like to give some time for exercising, the exercise is all varied some times its cycling for a few hours, muscle building at the gum, walking in the neighbourhood park or even shopping malls.

After the exercise it’s time for food, and again sink in with some TV and a book later.

For a person who has a job or a regular business it not difficult maintaining a routine, it is generally regular business timings, but for a guy like me who is a freelancer/work from home, believe me this is very challenging. I also worry that as soon as I have organised my life, I don’t want something to come in way of my routine.

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All this desires/wants certainly not a good thing, or is it?

I have never given a serious thought to my desires, never made any plans to go after them, have always been happy with what was served to me.
I guess it's time that I'm no longer happy with what was served to me, and I have to get what I want.
So Focus should be the key word and one should know what one wants, but what if the list is endless, is there a benchmark to my wants?

I guess the painful part is working on and doggedly identifying the wants, analyzing whether it's worth it, or do I really want it.

More on that later I guess...

This is a part of my self medit programme where I have confined myself to solitary self exploration, to know myself and probably come up with a blue print for life. ( what luxury, isn't it?)

Manoj

www.manojnayak.com

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